I had one of those weeks. You know what I am talking about, the one where there is so much going on and you start to lose your mind and before you know it, you have completely snapped! This all went down the week we bought our house. First off, I was sick the whole week, which just added to the annoyance and stress. I was also slammed at work, and then there was the buying and closing on our house. After a long work week, Saturday morning I had to work the Christmas Party for my work, and then from there headed off to a blogging event, followed by a day full of shopping for couches. I was beyond exausthed, but Trevor
I had totally forgot about my friend's bachelorette party. The one I had texted her twice about to double check on because I hadn't seen the email yet with the details. The one I had been talking about the week before non stop because there isn't much I love more than a party, especially a bachelorette party. I felt horrible. I felt like a bad friend. There wasn't enough time for me to make it before it would be over and Stephanie made me feel better by saying we could go out just us another night. It didn't change how upset I was to miss it and not be there for someone who I have known since I was three years old.
All the stress and being sick came to a head and I just lost it. So if any of you saw a blonde chick crying into her fries on Saturday, I am sorry. I just wanted to go home, curl up and die. Dramatic? Yes, but that was my state of mind on Saturday evening. I don't think I have ever been more upset to have missed something then I was that night, and I can honestly say I don't think I have ever completely blanked like that before. It was a strong reminder that I need to slow down. I have been going 100 miles a minute these last few months, and things like this are bound to happen if I am always a stress ball. After this year, I feel like 2015 needs to be all about balance and simplicity. I know that I will always have a lot going on in my life, and I love having a full and active life, but I also feel like I am missing out on a lot of things because of it. Workaholic? Either way, I want to find that balance that will bring the peace that comes with keeping things simple. Balance seems to solve almost all the problems in life doesn't it? I need more balance in just about every aspect of my life. I think that will be my word for 2015, Balance, and I will throw Simplicity in there for good measure.
We move into our house this weekend! We just didn't have time last week, as you may have gathered, so I am looking forward to that, but also trying to not get too stressed out. Moving twice within six months is kind of a drag, but it has been a great opportunity to purge our stuff and really clean up our junk that has been with us for way too long. So here is the reminder that we can do anything, but not everything! This really rings true in my life right now, and for someone who is constantly going, I need some serious R&R folks.... after the move I guess? #whendoesitend?