A few weeks ago I was totally inspired by miss Bonnie, from the Life of Bon. We have only met a few times, but we have done some fun blog things together - and she will probably never want to do anything blog related with me again because of how many times I send incoherent e-mails and for the fact that I can never seem to manage everything I have going on in my life! :)
Bonnie wrote about what makes her love a blog. For her, it was an honest blogger, and then she proceeded to express some different "truths." I absolutely loved it. And it totally has inspired me to write down some of my own truths... so here we go...
+ I am terrified at the thought of becoming a mother. I fear I won't ever get that feeling that I am "ready." I am afraid of everything surrounding it. I am afraid that I won't be able to get pregnant like my sister. I mean, how would I handle those feelings that come with infertility? I am not sure I would hold up so well. But with that said I am also afraid to get pregnant, because I am afraid of the physical aspect of pregnancy. And to top it off I am afraid of raising a child and what that will do to who I think I am now. I am just point blank afraid of it all, in all honesty.
+I hate being put into some box because of my religion. I don't feel like my religion does this, I feel like people within my religion and outside of my religion do this. I consider myself a progressive thinker, and hate being judged on the masses opinions. For example with the hot topic issue these days with gay marriage. Yes, my religion supports traditional marriage, but they also support agency. With our country dealing with issues of gay marriage I feel just by saying I am Mormon people feel like they already "know" what my stance is on the issue. I like to think that I can think outside of that box that I feel people place me in. What is my stance? My stance is that everyone can choose to live their life the way they want to. What do I propose? I propose we throw out the idea and the word "marriage" in how it relates to the government. I am always for less government involvement in our lives, especially our personal lives.
+ I am my own worst critic. I expect a lot from myself and there have been nights where I just cry because I feel like I am not meeting those expectations. Failing. It can be really hard for me to remember that life is about progression and not "already being there." Any mean thing someone has said to me or thought about me I have already said a million times to myself.