Not sure what to title this...

I went to a funeral today. This funeral was for a friend. We weren't best friends or anything... but we sure knew each other. We knew each other enough that it really hit me... I was in total and complete shock. I met him originally through his brother, who I became really good friends with my freshman year of college. When I transferred to the University of Utah I was surprised to see him in so many of my classes. Turns out we were in the same field of study. I remember being so shocked because him and his brother looked like twins, just so much alike! It was really through school that we got to know each other. Every time I would see him we would catch up for a bit, I would ask him how is family was doing and his brother, and after two years of having classes with each other we even started to share more personal things. We became friends.

I have only ever known two people that were significantly close to me, that have died. Each were way too young to leave this world, and both died in unusual, tragic accidents. The similarities of these two deaths really shook me. What really scares me is how affected I have been by these two people who have passed. If I get like this now... what would it be like to loose a parent? a sibling? a child?

I honestly can't even imagine it. I don't want to imagine it. Just thinking about it makes me upset and cry.

Death always makes things so real. It brings you back into reality for a moment that makes you realize what is important in life. The sad thing is... time will pass, and we all will go back to worrying and stressing over things that really just don't matter. I have been so consumed lately with worrying about mynute things. Now all I can think about is my family, and how much I love them &don't want anything to happen to them. I do have comfort in my belief that families can be together forever after this life... and that does help the pain, but if anyone has lost anyone... it still hurts.

My heart goes out to the Wright family, who when I met them showed me amazing hospitality &had such genuine kindness. Who raised two amazing sons, which both have always been such stand up guys and reliable friends. Eric left this world too soon, and my only sadness is what the world will miss out on in his absence.