Right now, while most people are enjoying Spring Break, Trevor is in the thick of studying for finals and I am trying to manage a to-do list that I am wading in knee deep. I don't know what it is about April but even though I graduated from college back in 2011, I always seem to be scrambling during this month. At this moment I wish I could split myself into four different me's to get everything done, and done right. I have been standing too long in the place of "managing" everything and am ready to start feeling like I am "killing it" again.
But isn't this the story of life? Finding the balance and the consistency? I have recently had a sort of epiphany when it comes to life, well my life anyways. And believe it or not it came through my current journey to take control of my health back. At the start of the year I talked about how I am the queen of yo-yo weight loss. Over the last four years I have gone up and down multiple times throughout the year a good 15 pounds. Learning the differences between my teenage body and coming into a woman's body came with its challenges. But it all has come down to consistency.
Sure, we have our bad days, it doesn't mean we throw in the towel for the rest of the week. I used to do this. But treating each new day like a fresh start has made all the difference, and I am realizing that this doesn't just apply to weight loss. It applies to our relationships, our spiritual growth, everything. Often I am extremely critical and hard on myself. There have been nights where Trevor attempts to comfort me while I just wallow in all the things I know I could do better, or want to change about myself. Trying to become better day by day can be overwhelming on a person, and I know I am just one of many women out there who have a melt down every now and then. But how often do we take a step back and look at our progress? Whoa. Did you see how far you just came? Do you SEE that?
Right now I might feel like I am failing at a lot of things, but I also know that I can't throw in the towel right now because consistency is where growth lies. If I can stay consistent even through the times it is harder to be, I will make it out the other end. I honestly didn't mean to sit down and write out this emotional post, but I guess that is just where my head and heart is at this morning. I want to give us all a pat on the back. Sometimes life gets stressful, it gets challenging and we wonder where all of our hard work has even taken us if we have found ourselves in "this" spot again. Take a look back and pat yourself on the back. You HAVE grown. You HAVE come further. And this is just another moment for you to continue to do that. Be consistent and keep on moving.
I am pretty sure I just wrote this post for me, and not necessarily for you. But hopefully one of you needed it right now as well. Cheers :)
GET THE PARTY STARTED
♥ the best day
♥ bikinis & diet coke
♥ disguised blessings
♥ a novel about my feelings
♥ a "utah" mormon
♥ twenty five before twenty five
♥ blonde hair
♥ four eyes
♥ remember to be kind
♥ arm pit hair